Question – if you’re completely honest with yourself, do you truly enjoy the silence?
Or, do you find yourself wriggling your way out of it, wondering over and over again in your head when something will cut through, and long for a welcomed distraction?
I just returned back to England from 7 days in Spain.
Away from routine. Away from familiarity, comfort, MY means of distracting escape…
And although some moments left me restless – the emotional agony, highs, and stillness with no time tied to anything (which I usually crave) were a HUGE gift.
It’s in these moments we can choose to surrender to what’s within… Or choose again to run from it.
We can choose to breathe into it… Or stop breathing completely.
We can choose to be conscious, fully conscious… or allow our old behaviors which no longer serve us, “take care” of us and leave their mark, again.
We can choose to feel it all until the shadow ceases to cling on anymore… or ignore its call to be heard, and choose to let it come up even louder, greater, another time… another time, and another time.
I’m choosing to get tangled up in its beauty.
It’s dark beauty until it becomes light, and then get tangled up and bathe in that too.
I’m choosing to find the gift, even if that means walking through stinging nettles and getting stung a million times along the way, with the scars to show for it.
I’m choosing to open up my heart, fall to my knees, scrape them, and say…
“I am willing”.
There’s always something greater inside you that’s always there to hold your hand.
I’m going to hold mine.
Are you going to hold your hand too?
Tonnes of love to you, 💛✌️